smiling again!
Saturday, April 29th, 2006boohoo.. i’m falling sick. but i’m all smiles actually. finally, the sunshine seems to be shining on me once again. nothing beats seeing her smiling back at me. the feeling… words can’t describe. it’s been truly a rocky week for me. but i’m glad that things turn out fine in the end. i found it so hard to sleep last few nites, but at least tonight, i noe i wouldn’t have any problem.
I guess there’s still so much i have to learn. taking good care of someone is truly never an easy task. i truly regret making her dissapointed and angry time and time again. but whenever that happens, i truly am very sorry. i know sorry can’t help much. and i can’t be saying sorry all my life. all i hope is that, i make less mistakes and aim to provide her the life long happiness that she deserves.
in any case, i fear losing her. and i guess i got a little paranoid past few days too. and she had to suffer because of that. guess the feeling of insecurity runs in both of us, not just her. but sometimes, i wish i could talk to her about anything and everything under the sun. dunno y, there’s still some kind of communication barrier between us… perhaps, we just need more time.
i admit, i still dun noe her well enough. although i certainly tried very hard to understand her, sometimes, i just misinterprete things and things turn out ugly. i admit i can’t read her mind either although for some strange reason, she can always read my mind. interesting huh? well, that’s my superwoman!
