sigh~~… that’s what i discovered about myself today. i realised that i really am a soft-hearted person. i simply hate to see ppl around me feeling unhappy. i just can’t take it.
The very first thing that happened was after a short walk around the zoo, we were heading for the animal show. and there stood the stupid ice-cream shop… the kids had their eyes glued on it so much so that i can’t pretend that i didn’t see it. worst, i walked there only to find that the cheapest ice-cream cost $1.70!!!! i did a quick calculation and realised that if i give each of the kids $2. that’s enough to make me bankrupt! but anyway, i just couldn’t make myself say no. so, all of them had their fair share of free ice-cream each. well… at least they are happy. =)
then, comes another incident when the kids were at the playground. they were taking turns on the swing and of cos, they were having so much fun trying to swing as high as they could… until Raihan who was on the swing accidentally kicked poor little Casendra. she went up to me trying very hard to tell me what happened, "tea..cher.. Raihan k..kicked me..". i knew she is going to burst into tears real soon if i don’t act fast. i quickly got myself close to her, hoping that she can feel my sincerity and concern. I can’t exactly remember what i said at that instance but trust me… lots of words came out. from chinese "kuai kuai, bu yao gu" (hope i got the hanyu pinyin correct)… to other things like "it’s just an accident ok? don’t cry, don’t cry. if not you won’t look pretty". I knew i had to make Raihan swallow his pride and apologise and so i called for him immediately. Fortunately, Raihan did his part this time and even shook hands with her. real cool! guess Raihan is also soft-hearted like me after all. mayb.. it’s a guy-ger thingy. i dunno…
Also the whole time in the zoo, Casendra was non-stop pestering me to bring her for the Pony ride. She sounded like she won’t want to miss it for the world. The thing is, the ride is not free… and you can’t expect me to fork out my own money for all the kids rite? anw, Casendra was the only one who had money. so, i find it unfair if she goes for the ride while the others just watched. I came to this conclusion that we will all go complete all the stations that is required of us as we were participating in this game thingy called "ZOOLYMPICS". That way, the kids will be able to redeem a prize. plus, if we do it fast enough, we will have time for other things which i did mention the pony ride that Casendra is dying for. Time is almost up and we still have one more station to go. hmm… i realised that there is certainly no time for pony ride or watsoever. i knew i had to break the bad news and at that instance, Casendra can’t wait anymore cos she knew that we alreadi reached the last station. the thing that she didn’t know was… that time is almost up and we had a bus to catch. darn…. i had to tell her n xplain to her the scenario and she made me feel freaking guilty when she said "teacher… but u said i can go for the pony ride after finish all the games…". i didn’t know what to say really. i was lost for words…
Good thing.. Casendra is a strong ger. Although i can see the sadness in her eyes, she tried her best to smile infront of the rest as we made our way back to the exit. One thing for sure, she refused to talk to me for a while. At the exit, she saw the gift store and she asked me if i can bring her there. i was hoping that i can find ways to make it up to her. so, i granted her wish n walked her into the store. wow… everything there was very costly…. nothing cost less than $10! xcept the postcards… I knew she had about $6 or so which she put aside for the pony ride that she wanted to go for earlier on. and so, i decided to find out if there’s anything in particular that she want. and obviously, she asked for a pony. haha. well… the pony cost $10. I see this as a gd chance to make it up to her and so, i topped up $5 as she paid for the the half…
and everyone lived happily ever after!